Noona neomu yeppeo

Noona you're so pretty~~

i wish somwone could told me dat, at least once in my life, and i will be very happy with it.... Seriously....
i notice it in these few days, kids have been looking at me,, smiling sweetly towards me, unlike people around my age. I wish i can decode their mind. Even back at home, the kids always want to befriends with me, despite i am being silent. Dealing with kids can be troublesome but they are the ones with pure heart and innocent. Hopefully they see me as a good person and someone they can relate to, not a person that they view negatively. If i have childre nof my own, hopefully i can give them the best way for them to grow and hopefully they can grow up in  better environment than i am.

God, please love me more and send me a right person to love. Amen....

Evanescence

Thinking of how unjust is the world today, aand d society around us, i suddenly thought of the old me. the quiet nd the serious version of me, back in a few years ago when i was in form 2-form 3. I am very full of angriness and keep all the angriness inside of me, and only release it thru the song. Singing evanescence song reaally help me at those time. especially during the time when i have to do self study for my PMR. It is the tough time with all the uprorar aand tension. and yet i manage to keep up with the study and be one of the best, unlike now. i've been missing all the time from back then, where i am much stronger and stricter. Unlike in the recent days, where i have to keep all the knowledge and my talent somewhere else. Back then, i have more times to dream about my future than now. the only good thing about now is that i have more friends and we get to travel a lot. Plus, i got more money to invest on myself than before. Phew,,,, I should listen more to evanescence song and sing more of their song to release my anger. Probably i could find more inspiration to write some new songs. Gotta get going now... C u later... Chow...^^