One Shot Stories

SHE

inspired from TVXQ-She.


“Even when I close my eyes, I can see.
Even when I am far away, I know.
How beautiful of a person she is.”

Not being able to see you every day, I would still know, even if I close my eyes, or being overseas, I know, how beautiful you are, inside and out. Your beauty really shines through.

“I don’t want to let go of her hands.
It feels as if we’ll shatter.
How delicate of a person she is.”

She is the person I would like to hold onto. I won’t nd never want to let go off her hands. She is a delicate person that I treasure most, and if I ever let her go, it will makes the whole world shatter, it will be the end of the world. She is the most irreplaceable treasure that I ever found.


“The person who is laughing amongst those people
That angel is my lady.”

Meeting her at such place really make me feel uneasy. It’s not that I don’t like being in the same place as her, don’t get me wrong. But since our relationship is being kept a secret, it’s getting harder to meet her at a social event where there are full of press. It’s even harder whenever there are some men looking at her with interest or approach her, I always feel like going near to her, holding her hands and feel like telling everybody that she is mine. But that will be impossible, since it’s going to affect both of us, career wise and emotional wise. Looking her from afar, seeing her socialize with other’s make me sing in my heart.

“*I feel childishly proud
My expression becomes like an idiot
Please laugh only with me, oh SHE~ SHE~
I want to be your last.
You’re my heaven.
Only one in the world, oh SHE~ SHE~”

My friends and I all look at the same direction, looking at her in the crowd. And when she finally looking at our direction and smiling towards me, I feel so flustered. I smile myself like an idiot, looking at her from afar, when they tell me how beautiful she is, and how they adore her beauty. I feel very proud, much more than words can say, I am truly proud, though I can’t tell anybody, that she’s my girl.
However, when she started to smile to everyone in the crowd, I feel a bit jealous. I want her to only give her warmest smile to me, only laugh with me, my girl. What a selfish guy I am, but I want her forever. I want to be her final lover, because she is considered heaven to me. She is only one in my world, irreplaceable.

“She is very prideful
She never cries
How strong of a person she is”


Looking back at our relationship, I know she is a very strong person. Being away from her family and living in a foreign country, which has totally different culture from hers, it must be really hard for her. Since I date her for the last 1 and a half year, she rarely cried in front of me. She did whine a lot, I have to admit that, but rarely cried. She never called me and cries over the phone, even when we had a fight. Even when there’s hardship or obstacles she faces, she only kept in inside, she usually talks about it all day, but the next day, she will seems to forget it. But I know, she just keeps the worry inside. I know she worries about me more, because she knows that my packed schedule will be affected, as I always make her as my first priority. But there is an incident recently that makes me feels very frustrated, my heart aches every time I remember about it. One Friday afternoon, she called me around 2pm. It was the time she got back from her college. She called me crying in frustration, she told me she failed to make it into the summer school that was hosted by the college to the overseas. It was just the day before that she called me excitedly and tells me about the summer school. She was all exited and been wanted to go badly, as she really loves to travel and like to go to the country so badly. But the news she receive that morning is really indecent. Her lecturer removes her name from the list just because she didn’t fill it completely, only the problem with her CGPA. I know, her result is not that really good compare to the others, but the lecturer is so unjust in not letting her try to go for the interview. Her voice was shaking, she was crying so hard that I feel like my heart is going to explode. My heart really feels the pain. I really feel like running toward her and hug her close to me, never let her go, let her cry in my arms. But unfortunately for both of us, I was in the middle of preparation to go to broadcast station. I told my manager about my problem, but he refuse to let me to, as it will affect my professionalism level, and I was just in the beginning of my solo career. I really want to runaway to her, but there is no way I can. I take a deep breath and talk to her slowly, try to soothes her. I ask her to lie down on her pillow and close her eyes, sing her songs hoping that she will sleep to help her feel better. When I finally hearing her sobs stop, I am sure that she already fallen asleep, then I hung up. It feels so sad to let her cried in pain and I can’t be around to make her feel better.

“Even at my lame jokes
She is always laughing
Although, I there are times when I’m not sure if she’s honestly laughing.”

Every time we meet, I try to make her laugh as much as possible, that is what I promised myself, and I nailed it in my heart. But at times, I do make a lot of lame jokes. I know it because my group members used to ignore me over my immature and lame joke. And she, the person that I love is quite a funny person, with full of spontaneous jokes. I’ve always watch her reality shows that she filmed with her friends, and she always one of the person that lighten up the moods in the group, full of jokes and playfulness, not to forget, her cuteness in everything that she does. Knowing these facts, I sometimes doubted it, whether my jokes are really funny to her or she is just laughing because she doesn’t want me to feel bad. However, no matter what, I feel really grateful that she laughs at it, because it makes me happy to see her laugh, forgetting all her problems.

“The more I know you, The more I can’t understand you.
That person is my lady”

She is the person full of surprise, and always act unexpectedly. I really can’t decode her mind fully. Sometimes, when I thought that you always be A, you sometimes turn to be B. the mysterious aura around you is always there, as if I did not know you enough. The longer I know you, the more I can’t understand you. But still, you are the one that I always love, the person that always rank as my only Lady in my heart.

*Repeat

Oh, I know this lady, Baby
Only I know
Only those who love her can know
Even her tears

She is totally different from what people see her. Not even her close friends know about her, even though they seem to know a lot. She keeps everything for herself, even her personality, her bad first impression that she gives to everybody, it is all not the real her. What’s more is what she had on her mind, even though she speaks her mind most of the time, but there are things that she never ever let people know much about it, as if there’s a wall that people had to surpass to know about it. Her beautiful personality, her real self, only she, herself and the people who love her truly can see that clearly. Even I have to go through a lot of things to be able to see what is on the other side of the wall. Even her tears, that pure crystal water from her eyes, only I know her more than anybody else.

“*I feel childishly proud
My expression becomes like an idiot
Please laugh only with me, oh SHE~ SHE~
I want to be your last.
You’re my heaven.
Only one in the world, oh SHE~ SHE~”

At times, I smile alone like a child, feeling very proud that she’s my girl. Please only look at me and laugh, cause I want to be your last, your final love. You are my heaven that I have been looking for, the only girl for me in the world. You are the only one.


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LOVE IS…

Just like we both agreed upon…

We would like to give each other time to think it through

What does it means

What does people call love is…

Months that passes by without you

Days that I kept it all by myself

And the hours that I spent in loneliness

Everything that I do

The times that I spent without you

I kept myself busy, with my studies, my friends, and play around

I have a good time

But I still haven’t figured out, what they call LOVE is…

And at some point in my life

I started to lose control the steering wheel

I started to move aimlessly

I ground become more grumble

The path that I took seems to be different from it used to be

I got tired, I got confused

I can’t even think straight

Up until one day, I almost lose it all

But I can’t figure it out too…

What LOVE is …

What is LOVE?

They say LOVE is when two person get involve very deeply

It involves heart and soul

It is sacred, it is pure

They say

LOVE is patient, LOVE is kind

It does not envy, it does not boast

It is not proud, It is not rude

It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered

It keeps no record of wrong

But no matter what they said

I still did not understand it all

What LOVE is…..

But YESTERDAY…

When I walk on the street

You appear in front of me

You came to me keeping our promises

Promise that we will meet up after few months

To tell what LOVE is….

Looking at your face

It warms my heart

It makes me fluster again

It feels like the first time

You are still the same guy I know

The one with that smile

The one with cheerful voice

The one that always worries for me

The one only bring the warmth, that used to soothes me up

The one that I want to shares my worries away

It’s all you… no one else

Of all things, you didn’t tell me

What you think of LOVE is…

But you tell me this

That you never let me get away easily

That you never let me lose hope in you

That you never let my heart ache again

That you want to start over again

And I made up my mind too

That I will always trust you

Be with you

Through joys and sorrows

Through hardship and pain

Through all the hard times

And your hectic schedule

I’ll try to understand

And try to withstand my jealousy

I’ll bear with it if you are truly faithful

Seeing you again made me realize

I don’t care what people tell me

And I don’t know what the real definition of it is

And though I’m not very sure

I think I know what LOVE is…

LOVE is…. YOU




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Honor Society- Where Are You Now lyrics
Songwriters: Higgenson, Tom;

To my favorite teacher, told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush, who I thought I really loved
To the guys I miss, and the girls we kissed
Where are you now?

To my ex-best friends, don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands, and sing-alongs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now? 
'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like I do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend, sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved, but didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?

'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like I do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes, people change, but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who cared and who were there from the start
To the love that left and took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?


Where are you now?
 'Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like I do
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you, I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you, I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

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2NE1 Lonely 

I know that you’re gonna hate me
for saying these words right now
But I ain’t got no choice
I just have to let it out

‘Oppa, let’s just end this….’

            ‘You’re kidding right?’

            ‘No, I mean it…’

            ‘Is this some kind of prank?’ he looks at me, smiling sweetly, as if nothing is wrong.

            That is just so him, he is too innocent, too kind, too angelic, and he is the icon of all the goodness in the world. I can’t even look straight into his eyes anymore, he had been to kind to me, and I decide to end it, just like that.

            ‘is this for real?’ he started to feel furious. I look away immediately.

            ‘baby, look at me. Is this for real?’ he lifted up my chin, forcing our eyes to meet.

Cause you see lately something’s
Changed in my mind
Seems the fire within me has died
I’m a stranger to myself, don’t wanna feel this wa-a-ay

            ‘Oppa, mianhae…’ that is all I can say. I couldn’t think of anything else to say. i know this is going to be hard on him, but I can’t let myself living in a lies too.

You’re so sweet, so lovely
But even so I let go

            He took a deep breath and starts to walking back and forth, panicking over the situation. Then he turns back to me with a soft gaze.

            ‘Tell me what is it? Let’s try to fix things together, okay.’ He says to me, squeezing my hands tightly.

I don’t know, I don’t know
What’s taking over me?

            ‘No, I can’t.’ I looked up and try to hold my tears from falling down.

Why of all the moment, my tears want to fall? If I am going to tell it off, I should be the one who look cool right?

Your loving arms reach out for me
But even so I let go

I don’t know
I gotta find my way home

            ‘Baby, what’s wrong?’ he asked me and pulls me to his embrace. When he pats my hair, I couldn’t even hold it inside. My tears start to fall rapidly.

            ‘I’m sorry…’ I still say it, while letting him embrace me for the last time.

‘Why are you sorry? You didn’t do anything wrong… Let’s sort things out, okay… So, what’s the problem?’ he asked me again.

I push him gently and looked at him. Touching his hair, his face, and stop at his shoulder. I am going to miss his soon, I know, he had been a great company for the past 2 years, he is always there when I need him.

‘Oppa, hate me if you want. I’m okay with it. But you have to listen to me first.’

He look at me with a serious expression, not knowing what to do, he can’t do anything before I finish explaining everything to him.

Baby I’m sorry even now you’re here I’m lonely
I’m so selfish, I ain’t worthy of your heart
Wait here, and watch me walk away

I’m sorry, here’s the ending to our story
When we’re close I still feel like we’re worlds apart
I can’t stay, cause with you baby
I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely (eh-eh)

            ‘I don’t love you anymore.’

            ‘Why? Is there other man in your heart?’

            ‘No, there’s none.’

            ‘Then why? Is it me? Is it because I was always busy and travelling a lot? I’m sorry about that, but I’ll try to make time for you.’

You didn’t create this problem
All of this is my own fault
I can swear to God that I’ve been ready to break up from the start

            ‘It’s not that, it’s all my fault. You did nothing wrong. I just lost the feeling.’

            He starts to walk back and forth again.

            ‘It must be me, right?’ he looks at me and asks again.

            ‘That’s not it; you are always loving, sweet and kind to me. But in a way, lately, I can’t return that to you. I don’t even know myself anymore.’ I started to cry, frustrated towards myself. Why I can’t return his feeling despite being loved so much by him?

              ‘This is not right, you are just confused. There is no need to call it off.’ He told me and hugged me.

When you hold me I feel so out of place
I feel trapped I wanna run away
How come when I’m met by love it makes me weak and empty?

You’re so sweet, so lovely
But even so I let go
I don’t know, I don’t know
What’s taking over me?
Your loving arms reach out for me
But even so I let go
I don’t know
I gotta find my way home

            ‘Stop it, oppa, I just can’t do this anymore. I just can’t love you back the way I should be. You deserve someone who loves you back better than me. This is not right at all…’ I pushed him away.

            ‘There is no right and wrong anymore the moment you want to call it off. Why it have to be like this?’ his voice change. He raises his voice and his tears fall too.

Baby I’m sorry even now you’re here I’m lonely
I’m so selfish, I ain’t worthy of your heart
Wait here, and watch me walk away

I’m sorry, here’s the ending to our story
When we’re close I still feel like we’re worlds apart
I can’t stay, cause with you baby
I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely

Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely

            ‘Why?’ he asked me again, half pleaded.

            ‘I don’t know… I don’t even know myself anymore.’ I told him.

            ‘This is not right at all, please, you will regret this later.’

            ‘I won’t, I even regret it if I let you love me, not getting anything in return.’ I told him coldly, not even looking at his face.

            ‘We can work things out. Let’s try spending more time starting on today, and we visit the places that we’ve been in the past. And we can still create new memories together. Please…’ he still pleaded me.

Cause I’m just another girl, who’s tired of being lonely
I can’t take it anymore goodbye
Cause I’m just another girl
Who’s tired of it all

            ‘Oppa, it won’t work. I’ve tried. I’m not the same girl from two years ago. I changed a lot now.’

            ‘Baby, please…’ he kneeled down a begged me, crying.

            It really hurt me seeing him like this, knowing him for the past two years; he is a man that doesn’t cry. He even kneeled down.

            ‘Oppa, get up.’ I said, pulling his hand. But he is strong willed and is stubborn enough to continue to kneeled down.

I just cannot stay cause with you baby

I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely

            ‘Oppa, it won’t do this way.’ I told him.

            ‘Then how?’ he asked,

            ‘Nothing will work,’ I told him.

            ‘Then I’ll just be like this.’ He said.

            I kneeled down for him, hugging him tightly for the last final moment.

            ‘Oppa, hate me if you want. But, when I’m gone, be nice, okay. Enjoy your time with your family and your friends, and find a good girl who loves you back. Be nice to her and love her more than you love me. She deserves you more than I do. I’ll always pray for you no matter where I am, and I hope you’ll be successful in the future. Thank you for loving me all this while.’

I hugged him the tightly and for the last time, I took a deep breath and keep his sweet scent in my mind.

I took a last sight of him and bow to him. I took me leave immediately, despite seeing him knelt down and frozen looking at me. I am cruel and selfish I know, but I can’t let him suffers more. The more he told me he loves me, the more I feel suffocated. The more he shows me affection, the more I feel like running away. I might hurt him badly, know, but if I don’t do it now, he will be more hurt in the future too.

Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Baby I’m so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely (eh-eh)