He's just like a drug

I hate myself sometimes, for unable to move on from what obviously isn't mine to begin with. he didn't even have any interest in me, and i didn't even show my interest on him, so i better let go. i finally stop talking abt him a few weeks ago, and stop thinking about him after x seeing him for almost a month. But ever since i started to see him again, at such an unavoided situation, i started to think more of him, i feel the urge to see him again, i feel like if i didn't see him, i feel i'm going crazy. He really have the power to make me stress... SOmetimes i got into depression because i cant express my feeling freely and can't do anything about it.I feel like a fool, so helpless and so stupid for going on to keep on liking him, pabo..silly me. And i guess, that is how people that are addicted to drugs behave... keep on craving for more,, need the supply now and then, and feel stress and helpless when the drug is not there.
I keep on repeating the cycle, i know it bt i never change. hate myself for that.  Damn.... GOt to go now...

I bet i got addicted to him just like i got addicted to Mr. Choi Seung Hyun....