The Beautifool World

From today onwards, i would like to declare that i will live my own life,,, n not disturbing others...I really feels like a fool,, trying to get ___ attention once in a while n get totally ignored,,,, Stupid cat.... it is worst than the time when i was fooling around with the Vietnamese guy... at least i know my position back then,,, this time it is totally out of control,,, silly girl... WTH am i thinking abt??? Don't it seem hurting myself by doing this? It's really hurt, you know????? Do u really know abt it? All this while i really thought that we all can keep a healthy relationship, even if what i want doesn't work out, but what have u done? I cant believe i was fooled by the sight of you just a month ago,,, and i actually taking your words seriously... hahaaha.... what a fool.... I don't know what to think anymore,,, Whether to think it positively, like, ,you are interpreting my reaction on the last in the wrong way,, like i was so happy to leave you behind....  or the fact that it was over the moment we all stepping out off the place..

The memories i had was like a fiction,,, 2 months with so many stories to tell, and the ending is just like that,,, if i sell the stories, the people who read it will be very upset with the ending.... And me, have to start from scrap again,,, Deleting all the things i have written and starting to write a new story again,,just like 1 year ago, during the summer too... But that was a bit fun,,, i experience many things within 10days,,, and i get a souvenir, friendship, hatred, jealousy, loss of frens,, what else, i got it all in 10 days.... but nothing is as painful as this time.... it's only creating a scandal and big news, but it's not fun at all... OK... stop it... You are getting ignore anyway....  Padan muka kamu,, who ask you to be a minta puji type of girl,, everywhere u go u minta puji,,, now u loss one of ur source of minta puji, u hurt urself... Now only can minta puji with colleague at Station 1,, even then, they are going to be bored with u sooner or later... especially the matured ones, the 'dongsaeng', probably xla,,since they are cute little 'dongsaeng'.... bla..bla...bla... 

( While write this, i listening to 丁当-我爱他）

 P/S：我不爱他，只喜欢他。。。 

Nowadays, i spend most of my time cuci mata with the customers at my workplace,,, dat''s a fun thing to do...hehehe.... Only now i realize there are many handsome guys in kuching.. i know there are lots of pretty girls, but not handsome guy.... Working there make me see alll the hotties in Kuching... And yesterday,, a cute guy keep looking at me like once in a few minutes, how cute... but i am not too sure myself, is he looking because i am cute or because i look pathetic...hahahha.... anyway, last week i saw my brother in law (kkkk.....), U-kiss (ex-member) Kibum lookalike,,,, seriously,,, very handsome and with the height of 180++cm,,, Kibum usually doesn't look dat handsome when he is standing with his fellow members, or when he is standing next to his older brother,,, but seeing someone looks like him really make me think that he is actually very good looking in real life.... And this is x the first time i saw his lookalike,,, last time a saw a real korean in KL, looking like him in Monorail station... this time, he is probably a Malay or chinese la, i'm x too sure myself.... 

My other activities is fooling around with my colleague there... It's quite fun.... It really helps in keeping the tension away,,, well, working anywhere can cause tension.....